तन्हाई....

 

 तन्हाई हमें क्या कुछ सीखा जाती है,

 इतनी ख़ामोशी में भी कितना कुछ कह जाती है।

अपनों से दूर होने का अहसास चुभाती है,

मगर साथ ही उन्हें और करीब कर जाती है।

खुद को खुदी से भी मिलवाती है,

इस चुप्पी में अंतर्मन का शोर सुना जाती है।

कई बार यह तन्हाई सपने नए बुनवाती है,

कई नई उड़ानों के पंख लगा जाती है।

कभी कभी यह जीवन मंथन कराती है,

इल्म है की कितना कुछ दिखा जाती है।

मेरी तन्हाई तो अक्सर मुझसे लिखवाती है,

राज कई दिल के यूं बयां करा जाती है।

नूपुर अग्रवाल

ज़रा सी रोशनी....

 

ज़रा सी रोशनी भी,

कारगर हो जाती है,

अंधेरे से जीवन में ,

नया उल्लास भर जाती है।

भोर की किरण भी,

फिर जिंदा कर जाती है,

नव जीवन , नव चेतन का ,

प्रवाह कर जाती है।

एक टिमटिमाती लौ,

दहलीज को शोभित कर जाती है,

रहता है यहां कोई,

यह पता बताती है।

किसी की सीख,

कभी यूं छू जाती है,

एक नए जीवन की ओर,

अग्रसर कर जाती है।

- नूपुर अग्रवाल 

Finding my Life's Purpose !! (part1)

I have been searching for my life's purpose , I played various roles at work and in personal life , and none fit right . Slowly this longing grew and I even left my job to look to "do" more meaningful in life , only to realize that "doing" what I thought is my life's purpose is merely a part of it , not "THE purpose of my life"
For last 1 year I started on an intense journey to find and achieve my real"Life's purpose" , sitting with my and reconnecting with self .
Here are some notes , of what I learnt :

Q. What is my life purpose?
A. your life's purpose is to live a life You came here (on earth for ) for .

Q. Why did I come here for ?
A. To understand why you came here , you need to first find "who " you are .

Q. Who am I - a daughter? A wife ? A friend? A Lover? A sister? A Manager?
A. No , those are various roles you play . You are a soul !! A Human soul.

Q. Ok , so why I came here as a Human soul?
A. To fulfill your soul's life purpose.

Q. What is my soul's purpose?
A. To understand your soul's purpose You need to know what is a soul..

Q. What is a soul, an invisible light that resides in heart? Between brows? Outside body? How do I know what I can't see.
A. Yes we can't see, let's try describing it by what it is made of .

Q. What is soul made of ?
A. Love, Peace and Joy , I guess...

Q. Ok , I understand soul is made of love peace and Joy , but what is its purpose of coming on this earth as Human?
A. Ok , Let's understand Humans now

Q. Who is a human ?
A . Going by the basic book knowledge Human is a "social animal" with "intelligence".

Q. What do you mean by "Human is social animal " and what it means "with intelligence"
A. It means living a life in relationship with other humans ..
I guess, with intelligence , it means living a life using brains In What he does.

Q. So what is my life's purpose?
A. To live a life of who you are ...

Now ,  put it all together to see what it means ...
"I am a soul made of love , peace and joy which has come to earth to live a life true to my own nature while intelligently associating with other humans".

having realized "what" my life's purpose , I started on a journey to know "how" to live a life of My life's purpose.

Cont...








A.

Feeling contended in Doing something !!

Many times we do things thinking it will please others , make others happy and in return will bring us some kind of reward (emotional , financial etc) .
Whenever we do something in for something in return , we are seeking for momentary happiness ,  and many times are left in hurt or pain or anger if it doesn't bring in results as we anticipated.

The only way to do anything is to do it because" You WANT to do it" . You may make mistake and learn or you may succeed , but either way it will bring you a joy within .

People do not inflict pain or hurt on us , we do it ourself .  By doing things against our will , not owning up our decisions / our actions /results, we bring in inner conflict and that is the cause of pain and hurt , not others.
We have always heard that "doing for others " bring us joy . But it does carry a deeper meaning than just what it says . Unless you really own up something ,  making it very own cause, and be prepared to do it right from your very core ,  the satisfaction , the happiness cannot be yours!!

If you are not in alignment to yourself in doing something , no matter who else accepts or praise your work and what may be the gain , you will never feel contented. But if you are in alignment with self , it would not matter what the outcome is , the contentment would come by merely doing. It.

If you don't "want " to do anything , Don't do it .
If you are not "ready"  to do it , Don't do it.

But ,
When you "want" to do something , get "ready" for it 100% , "give it " 200% shrugging all your fears and call of ego , and you will never regret it!!!

Let it be your choice , your decision , your ownership and your outcome , only then you can feel "contended" ! ,

Have you missed to count "someone" ?

 It's often heard , women don't get to take care of themselves enough . I had feel its true but it's not just about women , but about any person who assumes the role of primary caregiver .
Society has seen women as primary caregiver and men as bread earner , so it applied mostly to women , but it really is the case with anyone who assumes the role of Primary caregiver of the family.This person assumes the role and considers it as duty to "give" constantly , forgetting the Self.
A beautiful story I read recently , describes it beautifully

"One time a group of 10 people crossed river and to ensure that all people crossed over safely they decided to head count  . Every time they counted they counted only NINE!! they took turns but got only NINE head count. This caused them worry and sadness.
A wise man passing by , saw them in despair and decided to help. He realized that the person counting is missing out himself . This time he asked them to count again and after they were done with Nine , the wise man reminded them that they are missing to count "themselves". Once they realized ,that all ten people were safe and they went happy !!"

Mostly as caregiver , we get so focused on taking care of others that we forget to count ourself as one among those . We alienate ourself from the care we are suppose to give to the "family".  While the frustration starts because we may be feeling exhausted , the actual cause of grief is that subconsciously we know we have missed someone we were responsible for and are not able to recognize who that is!!

A day of receiving More !!!

I love to sometimes go out and eat alone , just to give myself a company and get some quiet time to observe and feel around .. . Today was one such day .. Went to lunch , I am a foodie but selective foodie ... And somedays are not meant for food , just that feeling of going out and observing . 

I ordered my food , waited and observed people coming and going , that item number on Tv , the people seeing the food , expressions on people , their gestures ..

And while I was observing ,30  mins passed and still my food was not ready , asked and they realized they forgot !! 

 No worries , Today the purpose was "observation" .

Finally the food comes , and I ate and still observed.

Realized have got extra Roti (bread) ... First thought of eating it all ;) .. 

Then remembered there is a word called "overeating" and a expression called " getting fatter"  (can't afford anything more than I am already !!! ) and a pain and horror called "exercising " !! 

And thought let's nip it in bud !! 

As it was already on my plate and thought it will now only going to go in Dustin , let me share it with some birds who give me at that secluded stop , I love to sit and write these days ... 

Rolled back the roti in the aluminum foil wrap it came in .. 

Walked to that place and spread the bread under the tree in bite size nibbles for my little friends ..... 

Why didn't I think of it when I "had "more other days ??? Today I "received" more and I felt like sharing....

I was about to walk way , when I observed the beautiful seeds and acorn lying under the tree ... 

I picked few to observe ( that's what that lunch was about , isn't it ?? ) ... And loved them 

The artist in me danced with joy !!! how wonderful will they look on my Canvas !!It was my turn to receive back again !! 

Loved them and collected some in the same aluminum foil wrap I had brought the roti ..

 I came back with It filled 4 times filled I had shared from it !!

Received more  .. Shared ... Received much more !!!